two subjects, unrelated?

i don't know why it feels like i always need change.
it's something i've come to accept. i didn't know that i was accepting it, but i was, and now i have. it doesn't matter the shape or size of the change; a change is a change, and change makes me feel at ease. backwards isn't it?

lately, i have been following a northwest university (bachelor's of english) graduate's blog. she writes nearly everyday. it's impressive and entertaining. today i read about 'why she writes'. apparently, she writes because of the power it holds. and she wants to be able to wield some of that power. i understand that. and, in some ways, i relate. but mostly, i don't. maybe i'm still discovering why i want to write. the answer hasn't hit me yet, and i think that is one part of why i hesitate to accept 'writing' as any sort of career or field of study. i don't know what the other parts are.